Untitled… Another Side

One step forward and another five back,
Maybe one day my life will be on track.
Like a soulful song blowing in the wind,
I know… I know this is not just my sin.
Does it make me less of man that I’m not afraid to cry?
Or are others just too much of a coward to look others in the eye?
That one who seemed so strong and unafraid,
I’m that unique individual who was meant to be made.
Not your typical storm that clouds the sky,
Watch me as I live, love me as I die.
Die to a world of such cruelty and hate,
Words that supplement the heredity I love to call fate.
Look at me as I smile,
Watch me stroll as I begin to walk another mile.
The road seems wide, but it’s actually quite narrow,
Shoot me in the right direction with my bow and arrow.
A personality so cheerful and full of joy,
Could be snatched and thrown away like an overused toy.
Tear… and more tears,
Try listening with your eyes and not always with your ears.
Some may say I’m not your traditional guy,
Some may say I’m just not shy.
Whispers… loud whispers in the crowd,
Come a little closer, for I’ve already heard you aloud.
The craziness that falls behind the shadows attached to ones body,
Just made me realize that I’m that much of a hot commodity.
See, I’m not afraid to shed my tears and walk this earth,
I’m not afraid to admit that I’m human because I do get hurt.
Pain… pain… PAIN!
Things I’ve heard, there’s no wonder I’ve remained sane.
Hmm… could it be the one everyone claimed to be weak,
Thought he had the mentality of a naked shriek.
Rape is a crime, not just someone’s rhyme,
Neither is it always physical, but also emotional overtime.
Quick to assume,
Never to resume.
Resume to ask or learn about someone’s story,
Not to be put in words, but we all have one,
Years of built up frustration, confusion and lies,
Lies that can only be searched through the tears in my eyes.
This goes neither here, nor there…
I challenge myself as a young black man, to walk,
Walk my own path and live my own life,
For I’ve finally realized…
This is my movement, my story, my life.

-Christopher Jamil
12/4/2010